My Thoughts.

I think I know why, and then sometimes I don’t
Sometimes what I know makes no sense
And what I feel is right, is definitely wrong
Maybe that’s just the way the world is
Whatever thoughts are alive in me now
Are best left alone, without any reason
And sometimes the darkness is too intense
When life just doesn’t feel right anymore
A momentary lapse of logic, and reality
Is it so hard to look beyond all this?
To forget the fear and find what we lost
I remember all the dreams I saw at night
Some are colorful and some so painful
What do they mean, I may never realize
For what purpose do I dream, do I feel
The touch of divinity, invading my presence
I miss the evening sunsets, blowing breeze
I miss the compassion of my mother
Yet how sure am I that these things are real
What did I lose, and what did I gain
Do I still laugh, or cry through my pain?
So everything life has to offer is a facade
A dream dreamt over and over again
Does it matter whether my eyes are closed?
Or where my destiny might take me?
Someday these clouds would clear away
I wouldn’t know what my purpose is
Neither the truth, nor all the bloody lies
But hopefully as that day comes to an end
My thoughts would be clearer, than today..