On the 20th of January 2009, I celebrate the first anniversary of my attaining complete freedom from the so called “civilized societal structure.” It has been an adventurous journey with its fair share of perils and ponderings, but then real learning of the highest truths required such discomfitures. I now do not belong to what the world terms as the ‘realm of normalcy,’ for my thoughts or what can be said as the lack of thoughts enables my perceiving reality as it really is. And the aforementioned freedom is really a state of the mind where there are no shackles of the contractual give-or-take nature with any living or dead entity of this world. After a long period of trial and error with all the known principles and ideas of sustained life, where every facet of survival and all the ethical, controversial and sometimes plainly insane ideologies contributed by people who have walked the earth before me have been tested sincerely, I can positively reject each and every one of them as pseudo truths. There cannot be a conclusion about life simply for the fact that even a conclusion is another definitive feature of the mind, the truth being that when everything that has been said, written and contemplated has been renounced, what remains and what cannot be defined is the purest of truths. The only prerequisite for this is to become free of all mental faculties.
The journey which was started a year back was initiated by an urge to discredit everything known up till that point. This was due to the feeling of lack of completeness in life, and the mere usage of the world ‘feeling’ understates the emotion. It was not something of the mind as felt till that moment, but from somewhere deeper in the being, a cry of anguish from the depths of the consciousness for every attempt or opportunity of revelation of reality wasted and squandered away in the pursuit of trivialities like the desires of the flesh and the replacement of the cognitive functions with false perceptions obtained from substance abuse. Of course I’m indebted to each and every one of these experiences, because without the knowledge gained from them I wouldn’t have understood the common element of illusion being the substratum of them all. Once the clarity of mind was achieved, the range of perception broadened to the point of infinity and all that was apparent before me faded away into nothingness. This life and its myriad avenues of thought dispersal and diffusion of energy into whirlpools of seemingly related realities stood naked before me with all the cracks and crevices of untruths that permeate our every day existence. It was a wonder as to how I could translate all these years of living into unsubstantial nonsense, meaningless numbers in an equation that had all the beauty of a mathematical conundrum. But at that moment in time, no matter what the mysteries were, it was the result of freedom that shone in all glory.
Today I realize that all this was meant to be, that every experience and exquisite weave of the fabric of my existence was as per the original design. And just like me, every other entity that is nothing but another expression of the consciousness that forms the substance of what I really am will also attempt such experiences, survive through the downfalls and reach a peak in its evolutionary ascent, whereby the game is carried to the next level. Here the story does not end for just like all endings are but only a prelude to other beginnings, I and similarly others, fellow travelers on this journey of freedom will start experiencing new truths, different agendas of destiny and ultimately reach the source of all this illusion, the entry-point of time and theory, when at last we shall know for real what forms the constitution of Absolute Consciousness.
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